Private papers of JSG

JOEL S. GOLDSMITH,
PRIVATE PAPERS
I, Joel, sit here behind my body and view the world. I. Joel, look out and behold. First, I, Joel, realize that I am unbound, unlimited, free. I have neither restriction nor limitation except such as I mentally accept. For instance, I may mentally accept limited eye sight and thereby restrict my vision, but actually I am infinite and I have infinite or perfect vision and I use my eyes without limit or hindrance. I am not in bondage to physical organs such as organs of eyesight, nor are the accepted mental beliefs about eyesight binding upon me except as I mentally accept such beliefs. I am unbound. My vision is unlimited and unfettered and free. It is merely a matter of realizing that I am infinite. I am infinite. Infinity is the true nature of I, of my being.

I cannot be bound except as I accept mentally a person, circumstance or condition as binding, limiting or restricting. Heretofore, I have been bound by theology, that is, I have mentally accepted the theological belief that I, God, and I, Joel, were two. I, Joel, was to me a limited concept of I, God…I had accepted the theological belief of two-ness. It is very subtle, this belief of twoness, because oneness seems to set up a sense of claiming God-hood and Godhood is theologically something apart from manhood. But take the word “I”…is there actually any other Joel but I? Am I not Joel? And can I be limited by some thing, person or condition other than my acceptance mentally of limitation or bondage?

Here I sit…I, Joel. I am free…I am unbound…I am true being…I am all that I am. I look out and behold a body…my body…her body. What is that to me? Do they restrict or limit me? If…only if I accept mentally such limitation. The mind is the avenue of limitation, through acceptance of belief, the belief that I can be touched, reached, affected by outside forces, powers…or rather, that there are outside forces or powers. I am and must be the only power since I sit here as I…the intelligence, the life, the source of activity and supply.

The secret is in the word I. The secret is the awareness that I Joel, am the I…the unrestricted, unlimited, the infinite, the eternal I. But then I must first recognize this…I, Joel must first recognize this: the further that what I behold as person, circumstance, and condition are not limiting, binding, circumscribing, except as I would mentally accept person or condition as power, as power of limitation. As I write this, I feel no bloated egotism as if I were trying to be or claim something I am not. I “feel” that there is only this I that I am and that I am that unrestricted being. All sense of a lesser selfhood has disappeared. There is truly only one Self…and I am that being…I, Joel, am I…I, Joel, am Joel…Joel and I are not two but one and I am that one. It is as simple as that. Now I actually “see” and “feel” that I am I…that I am Joel…that there is no other I to Joel but the I that Joel is which is the I that I am. Also, I “see” that any sense of restriction or limitation is a mentally entertained one, not an actual condition. This must have been that moment of Mosses…the realization or actual knowledge that there is only one I. I Joel am I. Is that not true? This must be what Isaiah knew. There is no me but me…surely I am I. Is there any other I, any other Joel, any other Self? How can I get…acquire…attain any other I…this is the I that was in Christ Jesus. There isn’t any other. This I even as Joel has no limitation, no end, no bondage, since I am the power. Probably I is the power, the Life, the activity, the intelligence.

At the moment, I am peaceful, serene, calm. Outwardly nothing has changed…but there is a calmness, a peace, that “feels” only one I and seems to know I am that I…there is no other I about.

Watch…watch…and pray.

JOEL S. GOLDSMITH,
PRIVATE PAPERS