got a special message from Papa this morning. I had been doing a kind of pace-pray in which I found myself practically begging to take another step higher and no longer have to deal with mental intrusions. No, it wasn’t because I wanted a softer cozier life in the flesh – not at all! And yes I recognized that these intruding issues were my vehicle to get where I wanted to be. But I yearned to see a significant lessening of some basic-level intrusions.
Papa reminded me of my decision to go to college even though I was terribly ill-prepared for it. I persevered midst unspeakable opposition and one day I received a bachelor’s, then a master’s, then a Ph.D. There was unbelievable perseverance required every step of the way.
That wasn’t Papa’s message – not yet. His message was “What would you do differently now to obtain such a goal?” My answer has been coming piecemeal throughout the day: I’d fill every nook and cranny of my consciousness with full and complete God-awareness, leaving nary a peephole for anti-God thinking, feeling, rehearsing or yearning. I’d be ‘all in’ as in ALL IN. I’d recognize that every moment spent in ‘mixture’ will cost me infinitely more than I’m willing to pay anymore.
He gave me a two-thumbs-up!