Have you ever tried and tried
And tried some more
To get Spirit fully infused
In your conscious awareness
But nothing ever worked until
You hit an emergency situation
Where hope had vanished and
Help was nowhere in sight?

In utter desperation you had an
Epiphany: “Nothing else matters
In this sorry mess of mine
Or anywhere else in the world.
I don’t care anymore, that’s all I know.
God, divine Spirit, I want only You …..
Everything was SUDDENLY HEALED?

You were astonished beyond measure
Sure you were dreaming – how could
It be that you … unworthy for lack
Of insight and perspicacity … you
Could have received such an
Unspeakably amazing miracle
Midst all the sad drama of yesterday?

But now that’s months ago already
And you’re trying, trying, trying
To keep the elation, the astonishment
Alive. You want to bask in it forever
But how? What to do? Should I dare
Recreate an hideous, horrible, Life-
Threatening situation?

Think deeply now: it’s not the situation
But the exact same degree of intense
Critical commitment that you finally
Had in place the last time — moments
Before you SURRENDERED ABSOLUTELY
EVERYTHING – AND WANTED NOTHING
WHATSOEVER except proof that Spirit,
God, was fully in charge.

Robin Starbuck