TO WHOM DOES THE FEAR COME ?

When you are on the path to liberation, one of the first things that you experience is the removal of fear. All fear leaves you. And when there’s nothing to fear, there’s nothing to fight.

You simply have a chip on your shoulder and you react to life negatively because you fear. There is some deep imbedded fear in your subconscious. You may not be aware of it, but you have a deep fear, and you react by having a chip on your shoulder, and you’re always ready to fight life. As you inquire “To whom does this fear come?” as you begin to see that the fear belongs to the personal I and not to you, the fear begins to become weaker and weaker and weaker. The fear begins to flee as you self-inquire, as you ask
“To whom does the fear come?”

As you continue on the path to self-realization, the next quality that comes to you is a feeling of great peace. You’ve
lost fear and now you become peaceful. You become very peaceful. The world, things, ceases to disturb you. There is no reason why you feel peace. In other words things have really not changed dramatically in your life. You’re still aware of man’s inhumanity to man. You still see all the dastardly things on television that used to cause upset inside of you. You used to become upset something awful. And now for some reason you no longer become upset.

People used to look at you the wrong way, you are ready to fight. You’ll always find some fault some place. You go to a restaurant and you always believe that the waitress or the waiter is cheating you. You go to a supermarket at the checkout stand, you count everything you bought. You’re afraid of being cheated. All that stops. The fear is gone, and you feel peaceful. You have a deep conviction that nobody wants to hurt you. The feeling that there are people in the world who still can cheat you, mug you, rob you, disappears, even though those people may still exist. But
you have risen. You have risen. You no longer feel these things. You feel an unalloyed peace, for no reason, that has
nothing to do with person, place or thing.

The next quality that comes to you on the path to self-realization is happiness. Something within you is always happy. This doesn’t mean that you’re laughing all the time, or you always have to have a smile on your face. That’s just an outer appearance, a put on. You just feel happy for no reason whatsoever.

Eventually as you continue on the path, you feel a bliss, a bliss that is beyond understanding. The world can no longer hurt you. You haven’t come to a 100% conclusion that the world doesn’t exist, but for some reason you feel that the world can no longer hurt you, and you feel blissful all the time. Other people cannot see this. You want to share it with them, but you cannot. You can only point the way to self-inquiry.

As you continue on the path and you go deeper and deeper, the peace, the happiness, the bliss, become transcendent.
You become the self.
You become the substratum of all existence. You function as consciousness, yet you appear to people as a body. Your form becomes a transmitter for divine grace to those mature disciples and devotees who are ready to receive it, but you are doing no thing. You are not saying that I am something, and I transmit something. If you make a statement like that, there is still somebody left who believes they’re a transmitter. There is no one to transmit anything, yet it appears to happen that way.

So you see, there is a good reason to want to awaken from the mortal dream. You will become totally free, and you will experience joy that cannot be explained.
Now let’s talk about you.
How do you start?

By letting go of all your problems, all those things that have been hounding you, all those things you love so much, mentally letting them go, and inquiring
“To whom do they come?”
Inquiring “To whom do they come?” Realizing “They come to me. I feel these things. I feel hurt. I feel slighted. I feel upset. Yet I am not I.
Then who is I?
Where did the I come from that feels upset, that feels out of sorts?”
You do not answer that query, but you feel that the I carries the weight of the problem, not you.

As you continue to do this day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year, who knows? You never know when it may happen. But one day, the I will disappear into the heart during your waking state, and you will see your omnipresence with your spiritual eye.
You will feel a joy, a happiness, that’s beyond understanding.
You will be free.

~ The Collected Works of Robert Adams Volume 1 # Just Being