Always try to remember that satsang is not a lecture. Satsang is being. Being with
the Self. The reality of all existence. It has absolutely nothing to do with a sermon or a talk.
Just by being you can overcome all your problems and become the real person you are.
Just being.
Not being here, or being there, just being. Being yourself. Satsang is being.
What do you think you are, when I say being?
Do you identify with birth, with existence, going through life, hurrying, scurrying, trying to make things happen, trying to overcome your so called problems, searching for a better life. You’re doing the wrong thing. What you should be doing is letting go of everything you’ve ever believed, perceived, conceptualized. Becoming like a little child. Watching the world and not reacting to it. Observing and inquiring,
“Who is the observer?”
Never coming to any conclusion.
No beginning, no end. Not comparing, not analyzing, not judging, just being.
When you are just being, you are the Self. When you are being this and being that,
you are your humanhood. When you are your humanhood you identify with the world and you go through the vicissitudes of life, having problems, trying to solve them, having opinions, being judgmental, concerning yourself with what others say or what others do.
As long as you’re doing these things you can never really know what spiritual life is.
Spiritual life is being empty, totally empty. No opinions, no beliefs. It is only when
you become empty that you become fulfilled. You’re not trying to add on new knowledge to what you already have. You’re not trying to learn some mystical way of becoming self-realized. You’re not really trying to do anything to find liberation. You’re merely letting go of everything you’ve ever had.
If something is bothering you or annoying you during the day, during the night, no matter how justified you may feel, you have the problem. It makes no difference what anybody else is doing. As long as you feel hurt, as long as you feel slighted, as long as you feel doubtful, apprehensive, you must realize it’s the me, the personal I, that feels this way.
People ask me, “What is the reason, what is the purpose of becoming liberated?
Why can’t I just live a hedonistic existence, enjoying everything on this earth. Why should I become liberated?” That’s an interesting question. There’s really no answer, for you have to feel something in your own heart to cause a change to come upon you. You shouldn’t believe anything I say. I can only confess my own experience. I share my life with you. Yet that’s my experience. What is your experience? What are you going through?
Trying to become something is the first mistake you make.
Trying to overcome your problems is the second mistake you make.
Even trying to understand reality is a mistake.
The only thing left to do is to let go of everything else you’ve got, your fears, your
frustrations, your concepts, your ideas, your ego. Everything must be given up. There is absolutely nothing to gain. There is absolutely nothing to gain due to the fact that you are that already.
Wherever you go in the world, whatever teacher you may fall upon, whatever book you may read, whatever teaching you may discover, is really to no avail, until you
decide to give up everything you’re holding on to, and that hurts. Yet that’s exactly what you have to do. You have to give up your so called pleasures. Say your pleasures are drinking, smoking pot, doing all those good things. All those things are doing for you is making you a little high. And as you know when you come out of it, you feel worse thanyou’ve ever felt.
Now you have to give up also your love for trees, for flowers, for life itself, due to the fact, that whatever you hold onto keeps you earthbound. When you think about liberation, moksha, freedom, bliss, absolute reality, this is your state, beyond your addictions. As long as you’re doing things to make a better life for yourself in the world, you can never know reality.
Yet you may ask, and rightly so, “You mean I shouldn’t care about my job, my family, my love for flowers or for mountains or for rivers? I shouldn’t care for any of these things?” Mentally, you shouldn’t. Your body will continue to do what it does and will feel better doing it. Everything is given up mentally. When everything is given up mentally, your vasanas, your habits, the things that have held onto you for so long, will automatically break loose, and you will find freedom.
~ Robert Adams Satsangs
Transcript 84, Just Being