V. Ganesan
Grand Nephew of Sri Ramana Maharshi on meeting Robert Adams
The year was 1992, and I was travelling from San Diego to Phoenix via Los Angeles. At the crowded transit airport in Los Angeles, an elderly American lady approached me and asked, “Are you from India?” When I said, “Yes”, she very affectionately added, “This evening, a very pious man is giving a talk on Hindu spirituality in a friend‟s house. I am going and I would like to take you there.” I asked, “What is the name of this pious person?” and she answered, “Robert Adams.” I said, “This evening, I am giving a talk at Phoenix. So I cannot come. Please accept my apologies.” She was disappointed, but being a beautiful person she said, “I am sorry that you will not be able to come. Will you permit me to give you the transcripts of some of his talks? Could you go through them?” She handed over a bunch of print outs which I started reading on my flight to Phoenix. The very first page caught my rapt attention. Glued to the transcripts, I completed reading them in a state of ecstasy.
I was the editor of The Mountain Path. The editorial team at that time was keenly interested in focusing on those blessed devotees who had realized the Self in Sri Bhagavan‟s presence. We were planning to base all the issues of 1993 and 1994 on them. The entire team had devoted their time to this cause and we had collected quite a few articles on the subject, albeit with stiff opposition from certain quarters. I felt that young and new seekers who pursued Self Enquiry would be highly motivated if they read such accounts, as most people feel that the path of wisdom, jnana marga, is very difficult and suited only for a chosen few. Whereas the truth is that it is a simple, direct and natural path meant for all. Finding the address of Robert Adams in the transcript, I wrote to him requesting the details of how he attained Self realization in the presence of Bhagavan.
I received a long letter: “I am Robert Adams. I was born in New York in 1928. As far back as I can remember, even when I was in the crib, I recollect that a man about two feet tall, with white hair and a grey beard would always appear at the foot of the crib and speak gibberish to me. Being a child, I could not understand anything that he said. When I was about five or six years old, I told my parents about it, but they thought I was playing games. I told my friends. They also laughed at me. I stopped talking about it. These visits by the small man stopped when I was around seven.” Robert Adams also added that he did not know what to do. He could not share what was happening with anyone.
Then, something strange took place. Whenever he wanted anything, whether it was a pencil, a chocolate or a violin, it would appear through someone when he uttered the word „God‟ three times. If he found that someone needed a pencil in class, he would utter „God‟ three times and the pencil would be there and he would hand over the pencil to the person who needed it. It happened during his exams too. He was not interested in studying. During his exams, he would utter „God‟ three times, and the answers would appear before him and he would write them down. This is how he passed the exams. When writing a mathematics paper for which he was not prepared, he did the same thing. He held before him the question paper and uttered „God‟ three times.
He expected the answers to appear as always, but what happened was something entirely different: “The whole room was filled with a light a thousand times more brilliant than the sun. It was a beautiful, warm and shining glow. Everything and everyone in the room was immersed in the light. All the children seemed to be mere particles of light, and I found myself melting into a radiant being of consciousness. I then merged into consciousness. It was not an out of the body experience. This was a completely different experience. I realized that I was not my body. What appeared to be my body was not real. I went beyond the light into pure radiant consciousness. I became consciousness and my individuality merged into pure and absolute bliss. I expanded and became the universe. The feeling was indescribable. It was total bliss and total joy.”
After this experience, Robert Adams could no longer carry on all his activities as usual. Being a teenager, he wanted someone to guide him. At that time, people regarded Joel Goldsmith as a true Christian mystic. Many people suggested that he approach Joel Goldsmith and therefore he went there. (Years later, Joel Goldsmith kept constant contact with Arthur Osborne and me. He contributed some original and brilliant articles to almost every issue of The Mountain Path.) Joel Goldsmith listened to Robert Adams and suggested, “Go to Paramahamsa Yogananda in Encinitas. He will guide you.” Robert Adams went to Encinitas in a state of excitement and ecstasy.
A strange thing happened. There were many people in the presence of Paramahamsa Yogananda. Robert, however, was standing outside. Paramahamsa told his secretary, “There is a boy outside. Call him in.” Robert Adams prostrated before the great man and said, “You are my guru.” Paramahamsa answered, “No, I am not your guru. Your guru is Sri Ramana Maharshi. The Maharshi is not well, go to him immediately.” After coming out, Robert felt the need to read a book in the library. He was browsing through the philosophy section, when the book, Who am I?, caught his attention. When he saw the picture of Ramana Maharshi on the book, his hair stood on end, because this was the very person who used to appear before his crib and speak to him. So, with the strong recommendation of Paramahamsa Yogananda, he reached Arunachala in 1947.
Here is an account of what happened in the presence of Ramana Maharshi: “I arrived in Arunachala at the age of eighteen. I took with me some flowers and a bag full of fruits and offered them at the feet of the Maharshi. He looked at me and smiled; I returned the smile. The very first look of the Maharshi engulfed me in a flood of light, peace, quietude and bliss and it opened my inner eye and I instantly recognized the meaning and purpose of all my experiences – that I was never the body and that I was ever the unborn Self, the eternal silence. The Maharshi exuded compassion, love and bliss on the very first day. He looked at me and asked whether I had eaten breakfast, and when I said, „No‟, he asked the attendant to bring fruits and porridge and told me to eat. I lay down and went to sleep in the Old Hall itself, and when I woke up, the Maharshi guided me to a shack and asked me to take rest. In the evening too, he sent me food. I ate and again went to sleep. The Maharshi himself paid great attention to what was needed for my body to rest and relax.”
The next morning, Robert went to the Old Hall to meet Bhagavan. What happened in the presence of the Maharshi guided him deep within, while the silence and quietude of Bhagavan engulfed him. When he entered the hall, he saw Bhagavan‟s attendant, Krishnaswami, approaching Bhagavan again and again to complain about some people. After some time, Bhagavan looked sternly at Krishnaswami and said, “Remember the purpose for which you have come here. Attend to it. Keep quiet!‟” Robert took this as his very first upadesa, or instruction, from Bhagavan. He did not take it as an instruction given to Krishnaswami. From then on, every moment of the three years he stayed there was precious.
He dived within, and remained in a state of silence; he neither interfered in anyone‟s personal affairs, nor in the ashram management. Inwardly, he was established in truth and outwardly he was a recluse. There was no need for him to talk to anyone, not even to Bhagavan. This is why nobody knew Robert Adams, even though he stayed for three years in Arunachala. Later, when I went to verify, one or two old devotees said that there was a young fellow who was possibly mad. His name was, perhaps, Robert Adams. They also said that he followed Bhagavan‟s teachings and did not have anything to do with others. He never spoke, for all the time he was doing sadhana, remaining in that state. Robert himself shared with me the fact that even Bhagavan dropping his body did not affect him because he saw Bhagavan only as the Self.
Even when Bhagavan was present physically, he experienced Bhagavan only as the Self. So, he felt no sorrow or loss now as he plunged deeper and deeper into the Self. Once, Bhagavan appeared in Robert Adam‟s dream and said, “Go to Benares. There is an old swami there. Stay with him.” The swami was ninety years old. Robert went to Benares and sat in his presence every day. No conversation was necessary. One day, the swami informed people who had gathered before him, “I know my end is approaching in three days. I have not completed my mission. The moment I drop my body, a youth on the road will also die for no reason whatsoever. I will reside in his body and continue my mission.” On the third day, just after the swami dropped his body, a young boy around fourteen or fifteen years of age was crossing the road. He suddenly had fits and died. After around twenty minutes, the boy woke up and disappeared into the forest. This gave further meaning to Robert‟s belief in the Self. The appearance or the disappearance of the body did not in any way concern him.
Robert wandered around India, meeting with sages and saints. He did this for a few years. Then, Bhagavan appeared once again in his dream and said, “Go back to your country and spread the teachingof Self Enquiry, how to attain Self realization and how to stay in the state of „I AM‟ to seekers in America.” Bhagavan very specifically stated, “Do not start an institution. Do not be a guru. No publicity! If more than fifteen people gather around you, go away from that town and continue to spread the teaching elsewhere.” Robert Adams travelled, but there were no articles about him and no publicity. None except a select few knew about him. On reaching Hollywood, he was afflicted by Parkinson‟s disease and was forced to remain there.
A beautiful woman named Mary, along with her friends, attended on him. They also helped him disseminate the teachings of Bhagavan‟s Self Enquiry. He conducted satsangs and had small gatherings. His presence was very powerful. He would sit in the hall in silence for twenty minutes and everyone around him would become absolutely silent. It did not matter how many people were gathered there, or who was there. Ultimately, after the period of silence, Robert would speak for a few minutes. When I wrote to Robert Adams asking for permission to meet him, he replied, “You can meet me in Los Angeles.”
At the time, the president of the Course of Miracles, Dr. Tara Singh, was at Ramanasramam and he invited Anuradha and me to stay in their headquarters in Los Angeles. “I will arrange for you to meet Robert Adams,” he said. He arranged the meeting with Robert in a restaurant. We met there because the master had no institution, not even a house to call his own. I was thrilled, because he had called us for a lunch meeting. It reminded me of Bhagavan, who not only imparted wisdom but insisted on anyone visiting the ashram to partake of the food. As we approached the table we could only see Robert‟s back, but that was more than enough. The spiritual aura, the peace, the friendliness and the vibrations were palpable even from a distance. Robert had a great sense of humour. I requested him again and again to tell us about Bhagavan for I wanted to hear it from his own lips. He recounted all the incidents that he had earlier written to me – of how he saw Bhagavan at the foot of his crib and the other incidents – and concluded by saying, “In the evening, we are having a satsang in Mary‟s house. Please do come.”
Seventy people had already gathered when I reached there. There was such a profound and serene silence! A special seat had been arranged for Robert since he had Parkinson‟s. Behind him was a picture of Bhagavan. I too was given a special chair. After Robert sat down, he looked at everyone for about twenty minutes and in those twenty minutes he silenced everyone‟s minds and put them in a complete state of samadhi. Afterwards, he took the mike and spoke. He announced, “I welcome my master Ramana Maharshi‟s grand nephew, Ganesan, and his secretary, Anuradha. I would like Ganesan to speak.”
I spoke for nearly half an hour, at the end of which he happily said, “I entirely agree with every word that Ganesan has spoken today.” I would like to share an incident of great significance that took place when I was there. After the speeches, I sat at Robert‟s feet. Another person was also there, a John Wilkins, I think, who had been Robert‟s friend for more than twenty years. Out of the blue, John suddenly asked, “Robert, I want you to tell me: what is the truth and what is untruth? What is reality and unreality? I do not want you to quote from the scriptures or use any philosophical jargon. You must make me experience these right now at your feet.” I was thrilled because I wanted to know how Robert was going to answer these amazingly difficult questions.
Robert looked happy for some time and then became very serious. He looked at John and asked, “Who are you?” John thought that Robert had forgotten him because of the disease he had. He replied, “I am John Wilkins.” Robert gave him the most gracious smile that I have ever seen and said, “I AM is the truth and John Wilkins is the untruth. I AM is the reality and John Wilkins is the unreality.” Everyone went into a state of samadhi. This was not a mere answer; it was a statement that transported everyone into a state of silence and samadhi.
~ V. GANESAN
From Ramana Periya Puranam Book