Stream-of-consciousness letter for you

A STREAM-OF-CONSCIOUSNESS LETTER TO YOU:
What I want for you with my whole heart is that you come into an awareness that supersedes any that I have ever known! I have been blessed with the truth at a young age but I never pursued it anywhere near as much as I wish I had and like I said I wish it even more for you. Don’t think for a moment that it doesn’t involve effort. It involves great effort to get yourself fully aware there’s much to undo to Free Yourself and open the floodgates of pure consciousness! I could have fully awakened long ago but I clung to the hideous notion that I wanted to truly live my mortal life to the fullest so that that desire always dogged me even as I pursued the truth Lo these many many years!